If you guys are wondering why I don’t post dinner pictures,its because my parents don’t let me go on CC,or any food related websites,so if they saw me taking picture s of my dinner they would be kind of suspicious.I just had chicken,alexia sweet potato fries dipped in a greek yogurt/WCW dip,and grilled veggies with smart balance.Also had carrot cake ice-cream!So yummy:)
This left me feeling pretty full,and content with what I had consumed,but for some reason I always have the urge to just keep eating,even if it feels like im going to explode!Last night when I went to go get my snack at like 10:30,I had a binge episode.I have never mentioned this before on CC because I feel discusted with my self,and that you guys will think im a gross,but it usually happens everynight.I just get so frustrated with myself,and the way that I look that something in my mind switches into a completely different mode.Its not like its “junk” that im eating,but last night it was frozen yogurt,cinnamon sugar almonds,lots of dried fruit,WCW peanut butter,and lindors.Probably about 2000+ calories in food,even though I had alreay consumed 4000+ throughout the day.The weird thing is,when I did my daily weigh in this morning it was the SAME!A lot of the time at night I DONT want to keep eating but its like well if im still maintaining while I binge,then what will happen if I dont!Sorry for the rant,I jsut needed to let this out.I will post my food pictures later because its only 7 am:P
Hey!!!i was totoally bummed i couldnt post on ur last blog, so im glad u made a new one! :) dont be ashemaned of the bingeing thing,as u have probabaly read, it is due to your body being in starvation mode, but if u feel like its getting outta control, try this-(i used to be a binger) whenever you feel it coming, say, out loud to yourself "GET OUT OF THE KITCHEN AND GO TO BED NOW!" trust me, it actually works, doesnt matter if someone thinks your crazy, whats more important, youre health or someones opinion??
ReplyDeleteI just caught up on your previous posts, i have the saaame problem with my sister, well, not as bad tho. like, my sis is super thin and doesnt eat much, and yet my parents say NOTHING!!its annoying but at the end of the day, your life is yours and hers is hers.
My parentals get annoyed at me taking pics too, but, meh, my life not theirs, its not like im taking pics and not eating the food right??
stay strong girlie!!
and oh yea!!i read ur post on cc
id love to do a swap if ur want? im in ireland, so if ur willing to do the shipping, so am i! im sure theres lotsa stuff from here u havent tried :)
xxxxx